TAKE YOUR TIME WITH THIS ONE
I do not have a whole lot of time this morning remaining before I am off to the Seniors Event in the WSOP in Cherokee, NC. My two buddies came through again and I thank them. I have been out on The Front Porch this morning with Penthouse Dude, Thig and Twig. Not sure why Twig was there this morning, the storms running through the area this morning should have kept him away. There is a fair number of thoughts this morning about why I have hit a rut in the current situation I am experiencing. I have not been as present with all of this, in my opinion, over the past few weeks as I was when this all started. Today I got closer to understanding why as we waited for the, what turns out to have been very brief, line of storms to roll through.
It turns out this is all due to another expectation I had from day one. Within a few minutes of the Doc giving me my diagnosis, I accepted it and my whole world changed. I didn’t get mad or angry, I didn’t get all scared and emotional about it, I didn’t even fully understand it. I just knew that my life would never be the same and in a blink of an eye started preparing for this adventure. I am sure EVERYONE’S life changes when they get told something like this. I mean mine was literally tossing everything from that moment backwards out the window and immediately starting with a new set of life’s pieces. I didn’t force this to happen, I didn’t think what do I do now, it just happened before I even knew it. It was like something got inside me and just gathered everything up, I mean everything and ran off with it. Then they came back and unlocked a door in my head and said here let’s deal with all of this. Turns out Penthouse Dude saw an opening with me and took advantage of it. I will admit I am enjoying all the things I had locked away.
But here I sit going into month six and I am really starting to question if I have initially put all these new pieces exactly where they go. There are expectations that come with every piece as I put this puzzle together and I have stumbled upon a piece that looked like it should go in one place but turns out it really goes on the other side of the puzzle. This one piece has really created havoc with me for several weeks and it has made me question things. I am going to attempt to describe this piece for everyone and most likely this effort will lead to a true ramble that you have become accustomed to. My goal is to finish it before I leave this morning, but we all know that is a coin flip at best.
My entire world, existence and life changed just like that. This is the piece that has stumped me. My expectation with this piece was for me to suck it up, fight the battle and overcome this. Here is the problem, I expected the whole world to change and take this approach with me. What I have discovered is this just isn’t going to happen. Just because I have this and my life went a new direction, the world isn’t going to just say whoa, stop everything, My Simple Man wants everyone to jump in his bouncy house and follow his rules on how to do it. It is a great concept but as it turns out it is the dumbest expectation I have ever had. Well, I took a time out, visited The Front Porch again, and it is obvious to me that we will not complete this ramble today. The reason being, I have no idea where this is headed once again today. I am OK with this. This is very important to me to handle this piece of the puzzle correctly and I will take whatever time I need to accomplish this.
I would like to make one thing clear before I go. I have learned that the world isn’t going to just change and play by my rules and expectations. Those of you that are supporting me and following along and thinking you are…YOU ARE NOT! You are doing this because that is who you already were. You were a caring person long before I hit the scene. My situation didn’t change you. The only thing my situation has done is open my eyes to who you are and how wonderful everyone that has chimed in is. THANK YOU! This piece of the puzzle is me, and I must figure out where I fit with all the rest of the pieces that make up “the world”. Not an easy task, not a quick task, but a task I must get right for it all to come together.
Well poop…out of time this morning…to all my millions of fans around the world…Penthouse Dude and I thank you greatly!
Off to Kick Some Old Folks Butt,
A Simple Man
It turns out this is all due to another expectation I had from day one. Within a few minutes of the Doc giving me my diagnosis, I accepted it and my whole world changed. I didn’t get mad or angry, I didn’t get all scared and emotional about it, I didn’t even fully understand it. I just knew that my life would never be the same and in a blink of an eye started preparing for this adventure. I am sure EVERYONE’S life changes when they get told something like this. I mean mine was literally tossing everything from that moment backwards out the window and immediately starting with a new set of life’s pieces. I didn’t force this to happen, I didn’t think what do I do now, it just happened before I even knew it. It was like something got inside me and just gathered everything up, I mean everything and ran off with it. Then they came back and unlocked a door in my head and said here let’s deal with all of this. Turns out Penthouse Dude saw an opening with me and took advantage of it. I will admit I am enjoying all the things I had locked away.
But here I sit going into month six and I am really starting to question if I have initially put all these new pieces exactly where they go. There are expectations that come with every piece as I put this puzzle together and I have stumbled upon a piece that looked like it should go in one place but turns out it really goes on the other side of the puzzle. This one piece has really created havoc with me for several weeks and it has made me question things. I am going to attempt to describe this piece for everyone and most likely this effort will lead to a true ramble that you have become accustomed to. My goal is to finish it before I leave this morning, but we all know that is a coin flip at best.
My entire world, existence and life changed just like that. This is the piece that has stumped me. My expectation with this piece was for me to suck it up, fight the battle and overcome this. Here is the problem, I expected the whole world to change and take this approach with me. What I have discovered is this just isn’t going to happen. Just because I have this and my life went a new direction, the world isn’t going to just say whoa, stop everything, My Simple Man wants everyone to jump in his bouncy house and follow his rules on how to do it. It is a great concept but as it turns out it is the dumbest expectation I have ever had. Well, I took a time out, visited The Front Porch again, and it is obvious to me that we will not complete this ramble today. The reason being, I have no idea where this is headed once again today. I am OK with this. This is very important to me to handle this piece of the puzzle correctly and I will take whatever time I need to accomplish this.
I would like to make one thing clear before I go. I have learned that the world isn’t going to just change and play by my rules and expectations. Those of you that are supporting me and following along and thinking you are…YOU ARE NOT! You are doing this because that is who you already were. You were a caring person long before I hit the scene. My situation didn’t change you. The only thing my situation has done is open my eyes to who you are and how wonderful everyone that has chimed in is. THANK YOU! This piece of the puzzle is me, and I must figure out where I fit with all the rest of the pieces that make up “the world”. Not an easy task, not a quick task, but a task I must get right for it all to come together.
Well poop…out of time this morning…to all my millions of fans around the world…Penthouse Dude and I thank you greatly!
Off to Kick Some Old Folks Butt,
A Simple Man
— Thig On the Wheel